The Spiral and the Stop
Laverne was twenty-four, which meant she was old enough to know better and young enough to completely ignore that knowledge. The cigarette between her fingers was the first domino. It always was. The sharp bite of nicotine cut through the noise in her head, filled with the deadlines, the unpaid bills, the text from her mother asking if she'd "found anything serious yet." The smoke curled upward, a tiny rebellion against the pressure to be perfect. She wasn't a smoker, really. Not like the old men who coughed their way through life outside the bodega. She was a social smoker. There was a difference, she told herself. Social smokers could stop anytime. They just chose not to. The club was loud, sticky-floored, and full of strangers who all seemed to know each other. Laverne ordered a gin and tonic because it felt adult. The first sip was bitter. The second was better. By the third, the edges of her anxiety had softened into something blurry and warm. That was when Mari...