Funding His Stagnation
Felix had a system. He’d explained it to anyone who would listen at a party, usually while gesturing wildly with a cigarette. "The mind," he'd say, taking a long drag, "is a cage. And the ideas? They're tigers. Beautiful, terrifying tigers. You can't just open the door and let them out. You have to pace. You have to wear a path in the concrete. The smoking is the pacing. It's the physical manifestation of the creative process." It sounded good. It made him feel like a proper artist, a tortured soul in the tradition of Tennessee Williams or Eugene O’Neill. And Felix, a budding playwright, was in love with the idea of being a tortured artist far more than he was in love with the actual torture of writing. His small, HDC rent-controlled apartment was his jungle. The living room was littered with the carcasses of his process: overflowing ashtrays, empty coffee cups with brown rings staining the inside, and scattered notebooks filled not with scenes, but...