The Man Who Ran From Himself
Jaikun was twenty-seven years old and already tired of breathing. Not tired in the way that makes you yawn. Tired in the way that makes you look at a beautiful sunset and feel nothing except the quiet calculation of how many minutes remain before you have to go inside and wash the dishes. He was Chinese-Jamaican, a collision of two cultures that prized resilience, hard work, and the suppression of complaint. His father emigrated from Guangdong to Kingston in the 1980s and married a woman from St. Andrew whose father had done the same thing a generation earlier. Jaikun grew up eating saltfish and ackee alongside stir-fried bok choy. He spoke patois in the street and Cantonese at the dinner table. He was a walking hybrid, and he hated every part of himself equally. By twenty-seven, he had tried everything. He tried architecture school. Dropped out in his third year. He said the lines were too straight, which was a lie. The lines were fine. He was the problem. He tried opening a jer...